As I've mentioned before, this blog is the closest I've ever come to actually "keeping" a journal. What is the difference? I am sharing memories, experiences, ideas, pictures, and so much more "immediately". If or when I stop posting, I would like to have the entire blog printed out including the pictures and have it bound. I know it can be done. If I decide to keep writing until.......it will be up to Kelly, Jessie, Douglas and Page to decide what they want to do with it. I have been feeling a little better lately which is a good thing. However, I am not feeling better enough to be totally active which is a bad thing. Why? Because I have a computer and a credit card. (Not a good thing. :) I have been so frustrated with my little camera lately.
I will close with a picture of a view of Durham from the Rolling Hills area.
Sunday, July 29, 2012
Every so often you have to suck up and act like a grown up. I don't say that it is easy or something we always want to do - I'm just saying you have to know when to say - okay. Today was that day for me and my dream of getting to the District Convention next weekend. I spoke with our COBE and he said the facility we are going to will not allow any kind of "folding chair". Even though my chair isn't a "recliner", it is folding and it does lean back and stick out a little in the front. I told him about how Wally has offered for me to listen to the CD the congregation will get of their convention. I gave our COBE Wally's number to check into how to get a CD for our convention too.
You don't see many lightening bugs these days. We used to punch holes in the top of old mason jars and catch the lightening bugs in them. Then we would take them inside and turn the lights off. We would always release them before going to bed. One night, we released them inside and Mama was not happy about that at all. We don't see many of these lovely little insects anymore. Man is quickly causing the demise of so many of our insects with over population, light pollution, and pesticides. It was always magical when one would light on your finger and you would watch it closely as it's little tail would click on and off. Magical......
Saturday, July 28, 2012
Okay - In 17 days, it will have been a year since my ear started hurting right after our vacation last August. Twenty two days later - we had the real diagnoses and the long adventure began. I don't know if the word adventure is the one I'm looking for but it has been some trip. I do know it has been well over 9 months since the surgery and I'm still here! I found out this week there will be a PET scan in October. That will be about three weeks after the 1 year anniversary of the surgery. I have two appointments scheduled next week for acupuncture so I'm really hoping things will start falling into place. I woke up today determined I was going to be more active. I told Dwight that I wanted to go and visit Ennis followed with stopping by Kroger's, Pets Mart and Costco. I felt pretty strong and positive. We finally found the facility but had no idea how large it is. We walked all over the place
These are just a few of the goodies that were in the bag. I love my new Love Bear. I called her to express my deepest gratitude to her for thinking of me with so much love. And that is the only way I know how to put it. It was obvious that every thing she had put into the bag was picked and placed there with love. So sweet.
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
I am a sucker for vintage ----- anything. I'm pretty good at overlooking the things I grew up with unless it is something I really need or has a very special memory for me. I haven't been able to get the vintage quilt I posted about off my mind. I decided to contact the seller to see if she would consider lowering the price and guess what? She lowered it by $15.00! I really think I'm going to love it.
Monday, July 23, 2012
I had my first acupuncture today for this second round of treatments. I'm having one on Thursday afternoon, next Monday afternoon and the next Wednesday afternoon. After that, I will decide how many more I will get. I told her I wanted her to focus on recovering saliva and loosening scar tissue which she did. It was pretty painful getting all the many needles in place and many of them were going into extremely sensitive areas but I had expected to have pain. Of course, once they are all in place, everything calms down and there is no more pain. She was very excited to tell me she can tell my neck has loosened up some. She said I have been doing a good job with the therapy so I'm feeling a little better about it. Dwight waited in the quiet room for me. I asked him if he wanted something to read and he said no, he wanted to just listen to the water. I understood completely because that wall of water is so calming. I'm not sleeping good lately and am definitely feeling it. We had hoped to ride out to Jen's after my treatment to pick up the purple water bottle Kelly had left for me to use. I finally reached her just to find out she is back at the coast - again. I told her sarcastically how sorry I was she had to be down there again and she replied sarcastically that it sucked. That's okay because my family is looking forward to our week down there in just three weeks. Now if we can just have good weather that week, I will be happy. I just realized that it will be one year the week we are the coast since I got home from there last year and developed the now famous "ear ache" that led to the miraculous discovery of my Melanoma. I wish I could say I feel that I will be 100% by then but my therapist today reminded me that it isn't going to be the case. She feels I will see a big difference before the end of the year that was predicted by my oncologist nurse practitioner as being the time I could hope to feel better. Hopefully my therapist is correct.
Saturday, July 21, 2012
I have definitely become a "chatty patty" lately and don't like it at all. It is a "condition" that many women in my family suffers from time to time. One has it to such an extreme that it is hard to be in her company for any period of time. Kelly and I have talked about it and recently - when I realized I was doing it again, I asked Dwight to please help me with it. We have decided he will just say "talking" and hopefully I will hear that "trigger" word
Friday, July 20, 2012
"Safe to swallow - On the back under Warnings: among other things -- to prevent contamination, replace cap after each use. Keep out of reach of children. Store at below 77 degrees. Use within 3 months after opening. Contains milk and egg derivatives." Yeah - that is what was on the label but did I read it before ingesting it? Uh - that would have to be a big fat NO. Page had encouraged me to please use the oral balance dry mouth moisturizing liquid at night before going to sleep. I did and woke up very soon after with a horrible burning sensation in my throat and down into my chest. After violent coughing for several minutes I proceeded to throw up over and over until only nasty bile was coming. It wasn't pretty and I felt rotten for quite awhile. SO - I decided to look at the label and realized it has been open for nine months. Color me totally DUMB. In my defense though - who would think that mouthwash would go bad? I mean, really!
Thursday, July 19, 2012
Sadly I slept late again this morning because I couldn't get to sleep last night! Arghh. Hopefully my inner clock will re-set today and I'll get back on a good schedule. It is still steaming hot outside but I did wander out to the deck a little earlier to get a few pictures.
So why am I still awake this "early" tomorrow morning? Who knows - Dwight is snoring away and I'm glad. He worked a few jobs today in this horrific heat. Some of his friends have been sharing their fresh tomatoes and he has really been enjoying them. Color me sad - I love good tomatoes - or at least I did. Oh well. This too shall pass.